December soon will over. Sigh. December will over soon.
Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock.
Aagh. Somebody, slow the time, please. No! Just stop the time! At least stop mine.

How I was happy in the last November. I found my lost spirits. The spirits which has gone years ago. I felt God, The Greatest, gave me so much blessing. I felt behind all my pathetic broken heart's feeling, God has shown His generous. My spirits has come back. The reason why I got up every morning. The reason why I dressed up. The reason why I wanna fly high. It was all coming back to me. My sunshine is back. Sunshine = spirits. I felt that I can face my craziest time as long as I have my sunshine by my side.

End of November as well end of my happiness. First of January God will take it. God will take back my sunshine. Those days will gone. My sunshine will gone away. How can I stand up? How can I face my own self? How will I pass my days without it? God, only two months? Only two months I enjoy every moments. Sigh.

Sunshine-ku akan pergi. Dia gak kan ada lagi di pagiku. Dia gak akan ada lagi di soreku. O God, why does every moments has to be so hard? Hatiku patah untuk kedua kalinya. Kali ini bahkan jauh lebih sulit dihadapi. Gimana aku akan menjalani ini tanpa dia? Dia semangatku. Karena dia lah aku berhasil melewati semua hari2 gila yg kuhadapi. O God......

Dan sekarang, hanya 12 hari tersisa yang bisa kujalani bersamanya. Tapi bahkan aku pun tak yakin akan sepenuhnya kami lalui. Ya Allah, kenapa hal ini selalu menyiksa.. Apa yang harus kulalui nanti tanpanya? Bagaimana aku bisa menghadapi semuaaa???
I really really don't know. Hiks.

There's a possibility
All that I had was all I gon' get
There's a possibility
All I gon get is gone with your step

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You're the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility
I wouldn't know

Know that when you leave
By blood and by mean
You walk like a thieve
By blood and by mean
I'll fall when you leave

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You're the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility
I wouldn't know

So tell me when my sigh is over
You're the reason why I'm close
Tell me when you hear me falling
Theres a possibility
It wouldn't show

By blood and by mean
I fall when you leave
By blood and by mean
I follow your lead

*bella's song when edward left her*